Letters Live丨英國(guó)版《見(jiàn)字如面》——安德魯讀信:泰德休斯給愛(ài)子的信(4)

《Letters Live》(見(jiàn)信如晤) ，又稱(chēng)英國(guó)版《見(jiàn)字如面》。節(jié)目邀請(qǐng)音樂(lè)、影視、文藝界的名人,如卷福、抖森等,現(xiàn)場(chǎng)朗讀近一個(gè)世紀(jì)以來(lái)令人難忘的書(shū)信。以下是Letters Live丨英國(guó)版《見(jiàn)字如面》——安德魯讀信:泰德休斯給愛(ài)子的信(4)的資料，希望對(duì)你有所幫助！

 

So there it is. And the sense of itself, in that little being, at its core, is what it always was. But since that artificial secondary self took over the control of life around the age of eight, and relegated the real, vulnerable, supersensitive, suffering self back into its nursery, it has lacked training, this inner prisoner.

就是這樣。而它自身的感覺(jué)，在那個(gè)小小的存在里，在它的核心，就是它一直以來(lái)的樣子。但是自從這個(gè)人造的第二自我在八歲左右接管了生活的控制權(quán)，并把真實(shí)的、脆弱的、超敏感的、痛苦的自我送回它的育兒室以來(lái)，它缺乏訓(xùn)練，這是個(gè)困在內(nèi)心深處的囚徒。

And so, wherever life takes it by surprise, and suddenly the artificial self of adaptations proves inadequate, and fails to ward off the invasion of raw experience, that inner self is thrown into the front line — unprepared, with all its childhood terrors round its ears.

因此，無(wú)論生活在什么地方出其不意，突然適應(yīng)的人造自我被證明是不充分的，而且無(wú)法抵擋來(lái)自原始經(jīng)驗(yàn)的入侵，那個(gè)內(nèi)在的自我就會(huì)被拋到前線——毫無(wú)準(zhǔn)備，兒時(shí)的種種恐懼縈繞在耳邊。

 

And yet that’s the moment it wants. That’s where it comes alive — even if only to be overwhelmed and bewildered and hurt. And that’s where it calls up its own resources—not artificial aids, picked up outside, but real inner resources, real biological ability to cope, and to turn to account, and to enjoy.

然而，這正是它想要的時(shí)刻。這就是它蘇醒的地方——即使只是不知所措、困惑和受傷。這就是它調(diào)用自己的資源的地方——不是從外部獲得的人工輔助，而是真正的內(nèi)在資源，真正的生物應(yīng)對(duì)能力，來(lái)考慮，來(lái)享受。

That’s the paradox: the only time most people feel alive is when they’re suffering, when something overwhelms their ordinary, careful armour, and the naked child is flung out onto the world. That’s why the things that are worst to undergo are best to remember.

這就是矛盾之處：大多數(shù)人只有在遭受苦難時(shí)才發(fā)覺(jué)還活著，當(dāng)某些事物壓倒了他們平時(shí)小心翼翼的盔甲，將赤身裸體的孩子拋落到這個(gè)世界之時(shí)。這就是為什么最痛苦的經(jīng)歷會(huì)留下最深刻的記憶。