暮光之城?暮色 第270期:第十六章 卡萊爾(8)
當(dāng)他回過頭來看向我時(shí)，一種溫柔的天使般的微笑點(diǎn)亮了他的神情。
"And so we've come full circle," he concluded.
“所以現(xiàn)在我們又回到了開始的地方。”他作出了結(jié)語(yǔ)。
"Have you always stayed with Carlisle, then?" I wondered.
“那么，你一直都跟卡萊爾在一起嗎?”我想知道。
"Almost always." He put his hand lightly on my waist and pulled me with him as he walkedthrough the door. I stared back at the wall of pictures, wondering if I would ever get to hear theother stories.
“大部分時(shí)候是。”他輕柔地把手放到我的腰間，擁著我向門外走去。我回頭看著那滿墻的照片，想知道我是否聽到其它的故事。
Edward didn't say any more as we walked down the hall, so I asked, "Almost?"
當(dāng)我們走過走廊的時(shí)候，愛德華只字不提，所以我問道。“大部分?”
He sighed, seeming reluctant to answer. "Well, I had a typical bout of rebellious adolescence— about ten years after I was… born… created, whatever you want to call it. I wasn't sold on hislife of abstinence, and I resented him for curbing my appetite. So I went off on my own for atime."
他嘆了口氣，似乎很不情愿回答。“好吧，我有過一段典型的青春期中的叛逆期——大約在我……新生……被創(chuàng)造出來的十年之后，你想怎么稱呼都行。我對(duì)他那種禁欲的生活不感興趣，而且我厭惡他遏制我的欲望。所以我離開了，獨(dú)自過活了一段時(shí)間。”
"Really?" I was intrigued, rather than frightened, as I perhaps should have been.
“真的?”我被激起的好奇遠(yuǎn)勝于我的驚訝，也超出了我應(yīng)該好奇的程度。
He could tell. I vaguely realized that we were headed up the next flight of stairs, but I wasn'tpaying much attention to my surroundings.
他能分辨出來。我隱隱約約地意識(shí)到我們正在走上通往另一層的樓梯，但我完全沒有注意到自己周圍的環(huán)境。
"That doesn't repulse you?"
“那沒有擊退你嗎?”
"No."
“沒有。”
"Why not?"
“為什么沒有呢?”
"I guess… it sounds reasonable."
“我猜……這聽起來很合理。”
He barked a laugh, more loudly than before. We were at the top of the stairs now, in anotherpaneled hallway.
他厲聲笑著，比之前笑得還要響。我們現(xiàn)在已經(jīng)走到了樓梯頂上，站在了另一個(gè)鑲嵌著木地板的走廊里。
"From the time of my new birth," he murmured, "I had the advantage of knowing whateveryone around me was thinking, both human and non-human alike. That's why it took me tenyears to defy Carlisle — I could read his perfect sincerity, understand exactly why he lived theway he did.
“從我重獲新生時(shí)起，”他喃喃低語(yǔ)道。“我就獲得了知曉周圍每一個(gè)人的想法的優(yōu)勢(shì)，不管對(duì)方是否是人類。這就是為什么我在過了十年之后才敢挑釁卡萊爾——我能讀到他全然的真摯，確切地理解他為什么要過著這樣的生活。”
"It took me only a few years to return to Carlisle and recommit to his vision. I thought I wouldbe exempt from the… depression… that accompanies a conscience. Because I knew thethoughts of my prey, I could pass over the innocent and pursue only the evil. If I followed amurderer down a dark alley where he stalked a young girl — if I saved her, then surely I wasn'tso terrible."
“但只過了幾年，我又回到了卡萊爾身邊，重新接受他的觀點(diǎn)。那時(shí)候我想著，我可以得到解脫的，從那種……沮喪……中得到赦免，并且是伴隨著一種良心的產(chǎn)生的沮喪。因?yàn)槲夷苤牢业臓奚返南敕?，我可以略過那些無(wú)辜者，而只去獵食那些壞人。如果我追蹤著一個(gè)在暗巷里偷偷靠近一個(gè)年輕女孩的謀殺犯——如果我救了她，那么的確我就沒那么壞了。”
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